Friday, March 20, 2009

I believe....

My friend Terri once dragged me to a New Age Festival in town. I had no idea what was in store for me, but I was open to anything as I was going through my first divorce after 15 years of marriage.

I ran into a Tarot Reader who sat me down in front of her and started shuffling her cards. I cut the deck and she started laying the cards out in front of me.

Reader: "Wow, I see your divorce. Has your husband ever hurt you?"
Me: "No", I laughed at the thought. My first husband never even spanked the kids, he would never lay a hand on anyone.
Reader: "But I see violence, I want you to be careful, be very careful."
Me: "Okay, I will."
Reader: "I don't usually tell my clients that their marriage will never work, but this will never work. If I see that things can work, I suggest counseling. You can't repair this marriage."

I knew that my marriage wasn't working, after all, we were getting a divorce. I was confused at her obvious concern, knowing my husband, but I took her advice and was careful.

Now I am beginning to wonder if she wasn't seeing my current marriage instead. It fits, the violence, the threats, the fact that my marriage cannot be saved by counseling. Marriage counseling only works when both people want to save the marriage. Mr. Ex apparently has too many things suppressed deep down inside of him and I think he is actually afraid of therapy. He wouldn't even go when his daughter was seeing someone and needed help. I am hoping that the judge may order an evaluation like in the comment of my last post. I think it will help his relationship with his daughter and if he ever decides to share his life with someone else.

The best part of my reading was the end, after all the warnings...

Reader: "Just be very careful, please listen to me."
Me: "I understand."
Reader: "Ahhhh, and the last card, The Family Card. Here is the family you always wanted. Here is your family."

I always thought she meant Mr. Twisted and his daughter. Now I know that wasn't the case.

Who knows what she saw. Maybe she saw me and my 2 boys and Opal. Maybe she saw someone who wouldn't lie to me, keep secrets from me. Maybe she saw someone who would appreciate all that I have to offer.

I do know that I am on the right track. Instead of the sorrow someone would normally feel about a failed marriage, I feel hopeful and happy, looking forward to the future.

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1 comment:

coreymom40 said...

hmmm, that's interesting. As I sit here alone (awake by myself again) I'm not liking where this is going. Things are fine as long as I "contribute and become" like him. I am once again left to make sure everything is taken care of for the night. **I just deleted half my post**

Hang in there.